For a few weeks now I have been dealing with nausea, on and off throughout the days, often awakening me in the night. I knew that I was pregnant with Jedidiah because I kept waking up nauseous in the night. The first night this round of nausea happened, I began crying, remembering my pregnancy with our boy. It might sound strange, but even though I knew that I wasn’t pregnant again, I felt that another pregnancy would be disloyal to Jedidiah. I wondered, especially so soon, how I could possibly give my heart to another baby after losing my sweet Jedidiah.
Today–the 8th, two long months–lots of memories, lots of conflicting emotions…